I am on a very steep learning curve !
I have been told by my daughter that she has Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
I have so many mixed emotions, but I know no-where near as many as she has.
I am very close to her, and I am feeling so guilty that I did not realise that there was something
wrong. It causes me great pain that she has been battling on her own, until she could not take
it any longer.
Fortunately, she admitted herself into hospital a couple of months ago,
and this is when the full enormity of her illness hit me.
Everything came to a head last year when her father died, this event being the very last straw for her.
It took her Doctor and specialists 5 months to finally diagnose her illness. This in a way was a help to her, as she now had a label as to what was wrong with her. She gave me a book to read up on it, but I found it difficult to read, understand or think it was in any way explaining my daughter's illness to me that I could understand. So I sort of put the book aside ! As if I was
putting the illness to one side, she did not have it, it could not be happening to my beloved daughter, whom I have adored since her birth.
However I have tried to face up to it and do everything I can to help her in any way I can.
I felt sure there would be a Carer's Support Group in a town near where I lived, but to my dismay there is nothing at all. General Mental Illness yes , but not just to do with BPD.
My Doctor has found someone I can go to everynow and again to chat to, and I have found her to be a great help to me. She has pointed me in the right direction a few times, and she is
arranging for me to meet up with somebody at the end of August, which I am really looking forward to. However she lives far away from me.
However in the mean time I was wondered if I could get any feed back or support from the Great World Wide Web?
Anyone in the same boat as me? Anyone want to share their load? Anyone need a shoulder to cry on? Anyone have the need to talk to someone?
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My comments are meant to be softly softly.
It is such a terrible situation you find yourselves in. Suffering on behalf of a close relative is sometimes worse than being a patient oneself.
I strongly feel that this condition is a biochemical disorder, like so many others.
Doesn't make it any less traumatic, but might give you hope by trying to meet some great need for any chemical our bodies need.
Simplification, I know. But you never can tell.
One thing I would check is bloodsugar levels, whether too high or too low. There can be a correllation. Glucose meters are cheap and efficient.
Then of course there are umpteen vitamins and minerals that might be too low at times.
Doctors are on the whole disinterested in nutrition, so you have to be your own physician.
I just stumbled upon your blog, and although the posts are more than a year old I know that you must still be affected by this. My husband has BPD and has refused treatment. I understand many levels of grief and hopelessness as he destroys his life (and our life), but also the crazy hope and peace that love can provide. Just wanted to extend a hand, not knowing where you are in your struggle with your beloved daughter, but willing to talk and listen if the time is right.
~Heather
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